Sorry

It’s weird to be alone in the world.
I’m made to feel crazy because I’m alone with my thoughts. It’s difficult knowing you are right about things, but wishing you were wrong.
When it comes to society, I hate living around selfish people who don’t care about anything but themselves. Sorry!
I’ve always been a caring person which has been a part of my downfall, because our culture doesn’t reward good people. As a kid I think I would daydream too much because I was bored or sad.
I always thought I was made to do great things. I used to think I was in a mentally “stunted” place because I haven’t had the same experiences as normal people, but now I’m unsure because normal people online, (mostly millennials) are calling themselves 30 year old children. Cringe
Meanwhile here I am drained of my aspirations because of people crushing me and my soul.
I guess my expectations were too high, of people, and the world. Sorry!
I guess I was stupid for trying to see the positive in the negative.
I’m stressed out, I have too many regrets in my life. I have no time left.
The pain of going to sleep scared of what I could’ve been, who I would’ve been. Sorry
My time could be up in 10 years and I’d have nothing to look back on.

I’m sorry for burdening you
I have no one
I have no one
I guess I deserve it 
I have no one 
I have no one

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